From Girly name to First Kiss

I was completely dressed in pink saree and blouse. Mom and Shrutika were sitting on sofa when I came out. They asked me to come close. I went and stood in front of them. Shrutika took out a wig from her bag and asked me to wear it. I was stumbling to get it properly fit. But I was excited to habe my first wig. Mom said 'just a few months sweetie..by then your own hairs will be long enough'. I somehow managed to get the wig properly fit. They asked me to sit down..thats when shrutika pointed out to me to cross my legs. I did as she instructed. She had some paper in her hand. She gave to me and asked to read. It was a checklist I had to comply with from now on. It went on like this -
1) Delete all social networking profiles.
2) No more mens clothes except tshirt/shirt which too would be a little girly. That too only to be worn in college or when dad comes home.
3) Daily cooking food. Cleaning house. Washing own as well as moms clothes.
4) No more wearing moms inners or any other clothes. Though i can borrow her sarees.
5) Daily one hour to be spent on YouTube checking make up videos and other girly mannerisms.
6) Daily shaving whole body. Waxing on sunday.
7) Toe nails always to be painted red. Wear shoes to hide if you want to. Hand nails to be painted with clear coat on weekdays and red/pink on weekends.
8) Watching romantic flicks everyday. No more action/sci-fi/comedy movies. If time permits sex and the city or desperate housewives to be watched.
9) No masturbating. Peeing only sitting down.
10) Making new social networking profiles with your own girly pics and no adding girls on it. Only men allowed.
As soon as I finished Mom asked me have I ever masturbated. I nodded no. She asked sternly. To which I said 'Once I had rubbed pillow against my penis while wearing her panties and I came'. Both of them started laughing. Mom asked me to not to do it ever again. I said yes.
They asked me to go cook food. I went to the kitchen and started cooking. My ears were on what they were talking. I was shocked when shrutika asked my mom to put me on oestrogen pills. Mom seemed hesitant. Mom said lets see how i progress maybe later we can if doctors suggest. Shrutika didnt like it i guess. I was relieved but started worrying whether i have to live as a woman all my life now on. I finished cooking and made the dinner table. While we were having food.. Shrutika asked me if I had a name i replied ofcourse as if she didnt know. To which she said a girly name. I said no. She asked my mom we should give her a name. Mom asked me if I had anything in mind. I said no and put my head down. I was very excited to play with my long hairs though it was a wig. Shrutika suggested we should name her Shalini. Mom asked why only that name. She said since her name is Shrutika and moms name is Sheetal and both of them have given birth to the girly me. Something common from their name should be used. Mom agreed to Shalini. Shrutika asked me to make my girly accounts on social networking sites with the name of Shalini. She will help with clicking pics and writing other stuff. I didnt reply. I just finished food. Took their dishes and started cleaning utensils. Shrutika left for her home and went to her room. I finished my chores and went to my bedroom. Thats when mom came in and asked me to remove her saree and give it back. She said since it was my first day as a girl I was given saree to wear. From now on sarees onlu for special occasions. Other times only babydolls, camisoles, pajamas and other comfortable dresses. I said yes. She said no removing bras and panties while sleeping. Only while taking bath i will remove them as well as the fake boobs. I said yes..removed her saree and blouse and petticoat and gave it to her.. i got into a pink babydoll which we had shopped. I was so tired I slept off easily. Next few days it was same routine.. getting up early by 5am.. taking bath by 5.30.. preparing food for mom n me by 8.. Cleaning the house by 9.30.. by then mom would leave and shrutika would arrive.. watching romantic flicks with her.. having lunch.. watching YouTube videos on make up and different dressing styles.. while she would check if i was doing it properly.. studying for couple of hours in afternoon.. start preparing for evening snacks and dinner.. mom wpuld come..shrutika would leave by 5.. telling mom what I learnt today..having dinner with her and then cleaning and back to bed... it was quite simple..I was getting used to it.. I had my social profiles deleted but i was still hesitant to start my girly profiles yet. Even shrutika seemed to have forgotten it. Almost 2 weeks had passed doing this.. and I had not gone out of the house. One day mom asked me about my consulation with Psychiatrist.. I had completely forgotten she had called me. Mom asked me to go next day.. I said okay.. i informed shrutika at night itself about it. Next day was bit hard..I had to become a man.. I was not sure if I liked it.. but shrutika didnt for sure. She took out one of the jeans from my wardrobe and asked me to wear it.. ohh godd it was so hard getting into it.. it took me almost 20mins to wear the jeans.. it was a low waist jeans..it just couldn't hide my panties.. shrutika asked me not to worry and gave me my big old tshirt.. for 1st time in 2 weeks I was removing my bra and fake breasts for 1st time in day time.. shrutika smiled and said maybe u can have a the bra on. I was like r u mad ? She asked me to put on the bra and wear a cami on top of it. I did. And then she made ne wear the tshirt.. she was right.. it was very hard to judge if I had bra on.. I agreed to wearing it. She smiled. I took some money and left for the doctor. When I reached.. there was no one.. that was quite amusing.. i went to doctors cabin and found a male doctor..I checked again at the door..it was my moms friends cabin.. i asked him to which he said to come in.. i told him I wanted to meet the doctor. He said she hasnt come back from her vacations yet and he too is a doctor any he is handling her patients. He asked me what is my case..i just said no..I will come back when she comes and started to move out of there. Thats when he said 'U MUST BE SHALINI' and boom I was hell shocked.. i fell back into the chair.. i couldnt even mumble anything.. he started asking me about the progress I am making.. i just remained silent.. he was the 1st man who knew my reality..i was motionless.. he kept questioning and i remained silent.. I had tears in my eyes.. I could feel them running down my cheeks.. he noticed it and got out of is chair..and kept a hand on my shoulder and asked me to be calm..i got up.. I wanted to leave.. he just held my hand and said its okay.. I looked into his eyes.. he wiped off my tears. He still had on my shoulder.. I could feel his fingers trying to do something...thats when he caught hold of my bra strap and asked if I am wearing a bra.. i hust put my head down.. he lifted my face from chin and looked into my eyes.. we had our eyes locked for dont know how long.. I could feel my breathing getting heavier.. he came close.. idont know what happened. I automatically closed my eyes.. he put his right hand on my waist and pulled me closer to him and left hand on my neck. I didnt know what happened next but we started kissing.. I had my lips closed but he forced me to open.. we had our tongues into each other.. I was enjoying it..it felt like heaven.. he kept fondling my ass all the time.. he stopped kissing on lips and went to my neck.. all the time my eyes were closed.. thats when I felt pain and my eyes opened to reality..a man was kissing me..yuckks.. I pushed him and ran away from there.. I had started crying again.. he kept calling shalini come back but i just kept running and crying.. i got into the cab.. somehow managed to tell the cab driver my address and left from there.. i just couldnt imagine what had happened thpugh the pictures of us kissing kept flashing in my mind.

New duties of Sissy Life

I reached home. It was almost evening. I hurriedly got out of the panties and got into my male underwear. Panties were wet in the crotch area. I thought of throwing them but then i dont get to wear Moms clothes now, so i thought of hiding it. Dad came home but Mom wasnt still home. I was getting scared more and more. What has the doctor told mom.. has mom left us.. what will she tell dad. It was late 11 when mom came mom.. she had brought food for us from restaurant.. when dad asked why she was so late.. mom replied she was catching up with an old friend. I knew it was the doctor. Mom seemed drunk.. but i was scared so i just ate and went to the bed as quickly as possible. Mom didnt come to check in on me. I dozed off. Next morning Mom came to wake me up.. I was thinking she was going to talk about yesterday but instead she said the maid is on leave for couple of weeks.. and I am busy with work load..so I have just prepared dads n my pwn food. You prepare your own food.. and get the clothes washed..and also clean the house and utensils.. I had never been asked to do all this ever before.. but i said yes. And mom left. I got up had a wash and went to put my clothes in washing machine..and woaaahhh.. Moms clothes were there.. I was wondering my luck ! Thank God the Maid went on holiday. I rushed to see her bedroom and damn..it was open too.. even the wardrobe.. i couldnt contain my excitement !!! I grabbed her bra.. opened my locker and took out the panties doctor had forced me into and started dressing up completely. I specially chose a pink saree and blouse !! I even put on make up ! I was so excited to see myself in the mirror.. I was just roaming around the house.. thats when my phone rang.. it was mom.. I received the call to which she asked me whether i was doing what all was asked.. I had completely forgotten about it. But I said yes and disconnected the call. Thats when even shrutika messaged me after so long.. 'hey girl where the hell are you..hope u didnt run away...i want to see you bitch..can i come over to your house today?' I was like wtf.. if she comes she spoils everything..already she has put me into so much trouble.. so i thought its better to ignore her..i didnt reply. I just thought of getting the work done first and later prancing around. I started the machine.. went into kitchen and started cleaning the utensils.. I was loving its feel.. the sound of bangles.. it felt like housewife doing her chores.. it was so much fun to do all of it.. i did the utensils quickly and put some rice and vegetables for cooking. Then I started cleaning the house.. damn it was so tiring.. it took me more than 4 hours to get everything done..i was damn hungry by then.. i just ate the food which I made like a true housewife and sat seeing the tv.. I was so tired that I fell asleep on the couch.. it must have been around 3pm when I could sleepishly hear some bell.. i ignored it once and went back to sleep..but then the noise started increasing more.. thats when I realised there was somebody at the door.. I checked through the eye hole.. it was shrutika.. she was alone.. i thought she must have known now that i was home since she could have heard the tvs noice.. It was no use switching it off now.. I kept looking through the eye hole wishing she left.. she took out her mobile and started calling.. I knew she must be trying my no. I just rushed into my bedroom to put it on silent mode. I managed to do it. Just when the phone stopped ringing..she messaged me.. thats too much of jewellery u r wearing sweetheart.. I could hear your payals and bangles when u started running from the door..i was fucking pissed at this girl.. I hated her.. I was confused about what to do now.. she wasnt ready to go away.. i just thought i better remove everything and attend to her. I quickly went to moms bedroom and started removing the jewellery and clothes.. i neatly folded the saree, blouse, petticoat and put them into there place and then i remembered i still have make up on me..I went into the washroom which was attached to moms bedroom and started cleaning my face. I was almost done thats when I heard the door being unlocked..I was scared how was she managing it. Thats when I looked at the clock..it was 5pm..damn mom was home on perfect time today and shrutika must have told her no one is opening the door. Thats why mom must have used ger keys.. i still had bra amd panty on me.. I started running from the wash room thinking of making it just to my bedroom but they opened the door while i was still in moms bedroom. I hurriedly close the door and locked it. They had seen be do that.. but I wasn't sure whether they saw me in bra and panty. I was scared as fuck. Mom started yelling at me.. she asked me to come out of the room fast.. i just couldn't understand anything. I quickly unhooked the bra and put it on the bathroom hooks.. I thought if she asks i will say maybe u didnt put it in the machine after taking bath.. but what about the panty.. it wasnt moms.. i cant hide it in her room.. more over if maid starts coming again by 2morow itself.. mom will lock the doors and some or the other day she will find it out.. Mom was continuously yelling for me to come out of the bedroom. I thought there was no way I was getting out of this.. i just keep the panties on.. put moms towel around the waist and say i used your bathroom coz my geyser wasnt working properly. It seemed perfect idea.. i did so and came out.. I replied as I had planned.. Mom asked me to wear something up as shrutika was there.. and give her water and all by the time she changes and comes out. She asked shrutika not to go before she came
 Shrutika said she had all the time in the world.. mom went to her bedroom and locked it.. i didnt even look at shrutika and started going into my bedroom..I was about to close the door thats when shrutika forcibly came in.. I tried going away from her.. she just pulled my towel and started smiling.. u dumb sissy ur moms pink panties were peeking out all the time. I tried to hide them and said they are not moms.. to which she made big eyes and said ohhh so the sissy even has her own panties.. even if ur mom might have not noticed these.. girl just see in the mirror.. I checked..damn.. the bra strap marks.. shrutika came close to me and said girls should always have thr bra on otherwise see what happens ! She said now your mom knows u r a girly fag.. I am not letting you remove these hot panties that you have on.. I started begging her to go..mom will come out of bedroom anytime.. she said do as I say or I will tell her everything.. u can wear your clothes but keep these panties on. I agreed. I wore a tshirt and jeans over it and came out. She just kept teasing me about what I should be wearing, how awesome my figure is and on on.. i just kept quiet. Mom came out of bedroom and asked shrutika what will she like to have..to which shrutika replied no aunty its fine..u must be tired..u dont have to do this.. Mom laughed and came at sat besides her..and said i wont be making it she will make it..ohh sorry..he will make.. I was shocked to hear this cheap joke from mom.. shrutika knew my mom did this purposefully.. she played along and said if she is making i will have a coffee..ohh sorry he.. I was so embarrassed and excited at being called as she. Thats when mom shouted go and make coffee for both of us. I just put my head down and started walking towards kitchen.. thats when mom called me said.. u have left something u had worn in my bathroom.. pls take it in your room and put it for washing.. and now on it is urs.. I started crying.. i didnt want to show them I was crying.. i was just heading towards kitchen.. mom yelled and said do what is told to be done first.. now i couldnt control and bursted big time crying. Mom shouted even more and said stop crying like a girl and do your work.. Thats when shrutika aunty what us like a girl.. she is a girl only thats why she is crying so much.. i just couldny control anymore..I ran to moms bathroom grabbed the bra and started walking back.. shrutika noticed it.. I was sure she will comment something and she did..thats not matching your pink panties girl'.. Mom was like is she wearing panties ? Shrutika replied yeah they were peeking out of the towel..maybe she has them on now too.. i didnt want mom asking me to undress there now.. i just ran into my bedroom and locked the door and kept crying with my head tucked into the pillow. I cried and cried. Nobody came to console me. I wanted atleast my mom to come and say I love you the way are..but she didnt. I finally stopped crying after 15mins.. I could hear them talk.. I wanted to drink water..my throat had dried up.. but i didnt want to come out. I waited and waited.. it was almost 7 and shrutika and mom were still talking. Dont know about what.. i couldnt hear it properly. I just didnt want my dad coming and seeing me in this condition. I badly needed water. I thought to myself id they dont care about me so shouldnt i care. I opened the door and straight away walked to the kitchen. They stopped talking and kept looking at me. I drank water.. thats when mom said wash those cups and prepare dinner before dad comes home, shrutika will have dinner with us. I again wanted to go back into my bedroom but i thought it wont be of any use. I started cooking food while they kept chit chatting. I managed to have rice and curry ready by 8. Mom asked me to come and sit on the sofa. I was just wondering what next. She told me that she had a talk with the doctor yesterday.. doctor had advised her to give maid an off and keep all lockers open to see what i do. And well ! I can see what you really are. I cant believe you used to wear my dirty panties all day long ! U r disgusting. I just kept my head down. Mom continued I have fired the maid..we dont need her services anymore. You will be doing it all. Even the morning breakfast and lunch will be prepared by you along with dinner. Dad wakes up by 7. So you better have finished cooking by then. Clothes and utensils you do according to when you get time. And yes you will start going to college too. I just nodded yes. Now go and arrange food before dad comes home. Shrutika all the time just kept smiling. I did as said. Dad came home.. we had dinner.. it was all dad mom and shrutika talking. They didnt even bother to include me in their talks. I just wondered had dad taken efforts to see what was going on.. maybe things would have been lot different. We finished dinner.. Mom and shrutika took the plates while me and dad watched tv for sometime and he left to his room. Shrutika too left and mom asked me to go to bedroom. I had a message on phn shrutika.. ur dad will sleep by 10.30. U go and clean the utensils after 11pm. Damn i cant sleep till 12 and i have to get up by 5 next morning to prepare food. At 1030 Mom came in my room with an empty bag and asked me why hadnt I replied to shrutika. I said I had read the message thr was nothing to reply in it..Mom said you better reply from next time atleast with a yes and now go and clean the utensils..I was damn sleepy but i didnt say anything and left. Mom came in the kitchen after 5mins and said finish it up and better have everything prepared by 7 in the morning or I am telling your dad what you are upto. I nodded yes and resumed cleaning. I finished by 1130 and went to bed. I put an alarm on phone and dozed off. I woke up at 5 and thought of taking bath and then starting with making food. As i was about to pee it struck me I am wearing panties.. damn it was whole day I was in panties and i didnt even know.. i put them in the washing machine and went to bath. I finished bath and came out.. I opened my wardrobe but i couldn't find any of my male undies.. I even searched the whole room but no where thats when I heard sound of moms bathroom..she was up..it was almost 5.30.. she would scold me for being late.. but then whr were my undies.. thats when mom came in my room and said I knew you would be wasting time.. you dont need what you are searching for.. get back into what u were wearing till you buy new ones today afternoon after college..and now go and do your work.. I was spechless.. did that mean I had wear panties to college...damnn.. I was stuck..but i just took the panties back from machine and started preparing food. It was just the beginning of my sissy life but all I wanted was having fun crossdressing in the afternoon and here I was.. 

Horrible experience with Psychiatrist

I laid down in the bed thinking about today. What had happened wasnt even in my wildest dreams. Thinking about the future i didnt knew when I had fallen asleep. The next morning I woke there wasnt anyone in the house. My parents had left for work. I was damn hungry.. i hadnt eaten the whole day. I went to the kitchen and found some food prepared by mom. I was happy..or to say maybe food made me happy. I checked my phone..there wasnt anything from shrutika. I was scared as well as relieved. I took a quick shower and thought of going to college. After shower as I was going to put my clothes for washing I found nothing in the machine. My mom hadnt put her clothes for washing. This was quite a shocker. It made me curious. I thought of checking her bathroom..maybe she had forgot them there. Much too my shock her room was locked. I guess she had taken preventive measures. I was little sad..after seeing and wearing her clothes almost everyday..today was different. I thought to myself maybe its for my own good.. I was born as a man and so should i live like one. I started getting ready to go college..thats when i had a message on my phone. It was from mom. She asked me to come to some doctor in half an hour and not go to the college. Now i was scared to death. Will dad be there ? What doctor is this ? Will they put me into mental asylum thinking I was mad? I had thousands of questions in my mind. I had no option but to go to the doctor. I reached there on time. Mom was sitting there in the waiting room. I went and sat next to her. We didnt make any eye contact. I wanted to talk but mom didnt seem intrested. We sat for some 30mins silently till it was our turn. I started shivering..to hide my fear I had clinched my fist. As we entered the cabin I checked the doctors name and specialization. She was a psychiatrist. Damn ! We entered. Mom and the doctor hugged each other and asked about what is happening in life. They were friends. Then to my shock the doctor asked my mom to leave. Mom left. The fear gripped me even more. She had sensed my nervousness. I was sweating. She gave me water and asked to relax. I did so. But my fear hadnt reduced. Now she started asking questions. She was to the point. So is it true you like wearing make up ? I replied negatively. What about what you said to mom that you used her make up and maybe you even use her clothes. I stammered and said i did put on make up but not the clothes. She had me. She then turned her laptop towards me and asked me to give answers to the list of questions she had made for me while she will go and have her lunch. I said okay. She left and I started the test. It was see the image and answer kinda test. I started with the test. The question seemed easy..
1) who do you idolize ? Mom or dad -  I clicked mom
2) your favorite color ? White, black, pink, colorful - colorful though I had pink in my mind.
I thought to myself i can fake some answers by which she might guess I am a sissy.
3) do you have a girlfriend - no
4) did you ever have a girlfriend - no
5) do u like/love some girl - if yes then who is she - i said yes and I was to write shrutika..  when i changed it to no.
6) what about boyfriend ? Do u like boys - I could sense where this was going.. so i said no. It was true i never liked boys.yuck
7) who is hotter - there were 2 images - a woman in saree and a girl un western clothes.. I clicked on the woman in saree
8) how often do you masturbate ? Damn there was no option for never. I hadnt masturbated ever. But now I had to answer something. I clicked on twice a week.
9) which one is better ? There were two images of panties. A red thong and a pink laced satin full cover panty. Damn I had to select one. What the fuck was this. Anything i select will show I am a sissy..wtf should I do know.. I had my mind racing but my eyes were stuck to the pink lace panty.. I could feel a small erection. They were so cute. I clicked on them.
10) whom do u want to go in bed with - there was an image of naked woman and a woman in pink bra and panty. The bra and panty had little flowers on them. My erection grew looking at it. I clicked for woman in bra and panties.
The test was over.
I waited dor something around 5 mins when both my mom and doctor returned. She took the laptop and closed. I was thinking what about the result.. thats when she said.. we were observing your answers on other pc which is lan connected to this laptop. We already have the results. Then she said they knew what my answers to the first 5 questions would be.. all she wanted to see how much time i take to answer the last 5. The results are based on time too. How long you took to answer also means alot. Then she turned her screen to me and showed me an image and asked me are you sure u want to go in bed with this lady. It was the last question woman whom I had selected. I said yes. To which she again asked are you sure.. look carefully.. i saw again..dammmmit...it was a man who had crossdressed. WTF ! I had nothing to say.. shit.. she just took the laptop back and asked me to wait outside. All the time i was thinking what now ! Till last night 2 women knew and now a 3rd one. Mom came out after 10mins or so and we both left for home. On our way back Mom said i have to visit the doctor every week amd she wont accompany me from now on. I wont be going to the college for atleast a month till the treatments are on. I asked mom of any medicines have to be taken to which she said no. Mom dropped me home and left for office. I checked my phone there was a message from shrutika which said 'hey girl, why didnt you come to college doll' it turned me on badly.. instead of replying I wanted to crossdress.. i again checked if keys to my moms room are there. But i couldnt find any. It was so annoying. I had lost the excitement then i again checked my phone.. that sentence resonated through my mind. I thought to myself of being a man and not replying to this crap. I deleted the message and started studying. Which i couldn't..again n again the man in those bra and panties came in front of my eyes. This way the whole day passed away. Parents were home in the evening. I was called out for dinner. Mom wasnt wearing her night gown which she normally did..instead she was wearing a saree. Something was different. We finished dinner and went to our rooms. I slept thinking was i getting back to being a man. Next morning I woke up..again parents had left without waking me up.. the first thing I checked was the washing machine.. no inners..no clothes of mom. I checked her room..it was locked too. I was irritated. The same happened the third day and so on ! I was damn pissed off ! Every night I had started dreaming about being in womans clothes but to my luck nothing was in my hands. Shrutika didnt message me since that day i hadnt replied to her. All this together was frustrating me to the core. The whole week ever since i was caught I was home except that one visit to the doctor. No dressing up. Nothing. The day came when i had to visit the doctor again. Mom had left some money for the visit and left for work. It was a good thing she hadnt told anything to dad. He would have killed me. I got ready and left for the doctor. The clinic was very much empty that day. I went in and she recognized me. She asked about how i was doing and stuff. I replied positively even though i wasnt. She asked me to lock the door, while she closed all the curtains. I was wondering where will this lead to. Then she asked me to undress. I was like WHAT ??? She said u heard it right.. remove your clothes fast i dont have all day for this..if you dont want to do the treatment.. I am calling your mom you tell her what is wrong. I was red. But i obliged to what she said. She then asked me to remove my undies. I wasnt ready for that atleast. She then just got irritated and removed it. I couldnt resist her force. She stood there and noted some points on her paper while I tried to hide my embarrassment. She then asked me whether i had waxed or shaced my hair anytime. U said never..i never had much hair ever. She then caressed my hair and kept looking at my penis. I think she didn't get the wanted response. Out of nowhere she touched my penis..I tried to remove her hand but she tried holding it. After like 10 seconds she took it off and wrote something. Then she went to her chair opened up drawer and threw something at me. I caught it and damn..they were pink satin panties. My heart started racing. I had never felt such an immense pleasure..my moms were always cotton and plain panties but this was heaven.. i broke out of the trance and looked at her.. She was smiling.. she pointed to me downwards. I had a hard on ! I tried to cover it up with those panties..but as the sheer satin touched my penis..it grew even harder. She asked me thats the max hard on you get ? I blushed.. She asked me can you make out the difference ? I was like what difference ? She explained to me that touch of woman has no effect on you but look what panties in hand did to you..had you worn them you would have surely wetted them. I blushed even more. I didnt understand why this was happening. She said I am done with you..there is no use wasting time behind trying to get the man in you back. You weren't born as a man..you are a sissy and you better live like one..go get yourself a boyfriend. I was shocked at what she was saying.. but I had panties covering up my penis and I felt greatttt ! She then took my male undies and threw it into dustbin and asked me to get rid of the ones I had at home and get some panties and be the girl you are. I was on verge of crying. She said she will call mom and explain it to her..it will be hard for her to accept..I am sure you will convince.. and by the way ur mom is a strong woman and not a sissy like you. She will handle the situation perfectly. Now you can go.. you need not come next week. You come to tell me your progress a week after that. Now leave. I was crying..to which she ordered me stop it sissy...put on ur panties..cover up ur little hard on..and for your information nobody considers it as a hardon.. you better call it clit. Now leave.. I was still crying.. to which she said do you want me to call guards so that they too know the new sissy in town ? To which I nodded no..put on those panties..my clothes back on. Gave her the fees and left..while leaving she said bye girl.. i didnt respond to her. I was angry but i was turned on. I could feel the satin brushing against my jeans. The panties were tight..I could feel every inch of them.. journey from the. Doctor to my home was horrible as well as sensual.. a perfect hard on with consistent fear of being caught. I just sat in the cab and wondered what was she going to tell my Mom and how was she going to react.