From Girly name to First Kiss

I was completely dressed in pink saree and blouse. Mom and Shrutika were sitting on sofa when I came out. They asked me to come close. I went and stood in front of them. Shrutika took out a wig from her bag and asked me to wear it. I was stumbling to get it properly fit. But I was excited to habe my first wig. Mom said 'just a few months sweetie..by then your own hairs will be long enough'. I somehow managed to get the wig properly fit. They asked me to sit down..thats when shrutika pointed out to me to cross my legs. I did as she instructed. She had some paper in her hand. She gave to me and asked to read. It was a checklist I had to comply with from now on. It went on like this -
1) Delete all social networking profiles.
2) No more mens clothes except tshirt/shirt which too would be a little girly. That too only to be worn in college or when dad comes home.
3) Daily cooking food. Cleaning house. Washing own as well as moms clothes.
4) No more wearing moms inners or any other clothes. Though i can borrow her sarees.
5) Daily one hour to be spent on YouTube checking make up videos and other girly mannerisms.
6) Daily shaving whole body. Waxing on sunday.
7) Toe nails always to be painted red. Wear shoes to hide if you want to. Hand nails to be painted with clear coat on weekdays and red/pink on weekends.
8) Watching romantic flicks everyday. No more action/sci-fi/comedy movies. If time permits sex and the city or desperate housewives to be watched.
9) No masturbating. Peeing only sitting down.
10) Making new social networking profiles with your own girly pics and no adding girls on it. Only men allowed.
As soon as I finished Mom asked me have I ever masturbated. I nodded no. She asked sternly. To which I said 'Once I had rubbed pillow against my penis while wearing her panties and I came'. Both of them started laughing. Mom asked me to not to do it ever again. I said yes.
They asked me to go cook food. I went to the kitchen and started cooking. My ears were on what they were talking. I was shocked when shrutika asked my mom to put me on oestrogen pills. Mom seemed hesitant. Mom said lets see how i progress maybe later we can if doctors suggest. Shrutika didnt like it i guess. I was relieved but started worrying whether i have to live as a woman all my life now on. I finished cooking and made the dinner table. While we were having food.. Shrutika asked me if I had a name i replied ofcourse as if she didnt know. To which she said a girly name. I said no. She asked my mom we should give her a name. Mom asked me if I had anything in mind. I said no and put my head down. I was very excited to play with my long hairs though it was a wig. Shrutika suggested we should name her Shalini. Mom asked why only that name. She said since her name is Shrutika and moms name is Sheetal and both of them have given birth to the girly me. Something common from their name should be used. Mom agreed to Shalini. Shrutika asked me to make my girly accounts on social networking sites with the name of Shalini. She will help with clicking pics and writing other stuff. I didnt reply. I just finished food. Took their dishes and started cleaning utensils. Shrutika left for her home and went to her room. I finished my chores and went to my bedroom. Thats when mom came in and asked me to remove her saree and give it back. She said since it was my first day as a girl I was given saree to wear. From now on sarees onlu for special occasions. Other times only babydolls, camisoles, pajamas and other comfortable dresses. I said yes. She said no removing bras and panties while sleeping. Only while taking bath i will remove them as well as the fake boobs. I said yes..removed her saree and blouse and petticoat and gave it to her.. i got into a pink babydoll which we had shopped. I was so tired I slept off easily. Next few days it was same routine.. getting up early by 5am.. taking bath by 5.30.. preparing food for mom n me by 8.. Cleaning the house by 9.30.. by then mom would leave and shrutika would arrive.. watching romantic flicks with her.. having lunch.. watching YouTube videos on make up and different dressing styles.. while she would check if i was doing it properly.. studying for couple of hours in afternoon.. start preparing for evening snacks and dinner.. mom wpuld come..shrutika would leave by 5.. telling mom what I learnt today..having dinner with her and then cleaning and back to bed... it was quite simple..I was getting used to it.. I had my social profiles deleted but i was still hesitant to start my girly profiles yet. Even shrutika seemed to have forgotten it. Almost 2 weeks had passed doing this.. and I had not gone out of the house. One day mom asked me about my consulation with Psychiatrist.. I had completely forgotten she had called me. Mom asked me to go next day.. I said okay.. i informed shrutika at night itself about it. Next day was bit hard..I had to become a man.. I was not sure if I liked it.. but shrutika didnt for sure. She took out one of the jeans from my wardrobe and asked me to wear it.. ohh godd it was so hard getting into it.. it took me almost 20mins to wear the jeans.. it was a low waist jeans..it just couldn't hide my panties.. shrutika asked me not to worry and gave me my big old tshirt.. for 1st time in 2 weeks I was removing my bra and fake breasts for 1st time in day time.. shrutika smiled and said maybe u can have a the bra on. I was like r u mad ? She asked me to put on the bra and wear a cami on top of it. I did. And then she made ne wear the tshirt.. she was right.. it was very hard to judge if I had bra on.. I agreed to wearing it. She smiled. I took some money and left for the doctor. When I reached.. there was no one.. that was quite amusing.. i went to doctors cabin and found a male doctor..I checked again at the door..it was my moms friends cabin.. i asked him to which he said to come in.. i told him I wanted to meet the doctor. He said she hasnt come back from her vacations yet and he too is a doctor any he is handling her patients. He asked me what is my case..i just said no..I will come back when she comes and started to move out of there. Thats when he said 'U MUST BE SHALINI' and boom I was hell shocked.. i fell back into the chair.. i couldnt even mumble anything.. he started asking me about the progress I am making.. i just remained silent.. he was the 1st man who knew my reality..i was motionless.. he kept questioning and i remained silent.. I had tears in my eyes.. I could feel them running down my cheeks.. he noticed it and got out of is chair..and kept a hand on my shoulder and asked me to be calm..i got up.. I wanted to leave.. he just held my hand and said its okay.. I looked into his eyes.. he wiped off my tears. He still had on my shoulder.. I could feel his fingers trying to do something...thats when he caught hold of my bra strap and asked if I am wearing a bra.. i hust put my head down.. he lifted my face from chin and looked into my eyes.. we had our eyes locked for dont know how long.. I could feel my breathing getting heavier.. he came close.. idont know what happened. I automatically closed my eyes.. he put his right hand on my waist and pulled me closer to him and left hand on my neck. I didnt know what happened next but we started kissing.. I had my lips closed but he forced me to open.. we had our tongues into each other.. I was enjoying it..it felt like heaven.. he kept fondling my ass all the time.. he stopped kissing on lips and went to my neck.. all the time my eyes were closed.. thats when I felt pain and my eyes opened to reality..a man was kissing me..yuckks.. I pushed him and ran away from there.. I had started crying again.. he kept calling shalini come back but i just kept running and crying.. i got into the cab.. somehow managed to tell the cab driver my address and left from there.. i just couldnt imagine what had happened thpugh the pictures of us kissing kept flashing in my mind.

Beginning of being a Girl

I had finished cooking before 7 and went back to my room.. i just laid down on my bed thinking about how to complete all the chores and even attend the college. I just shuffled some books till the time parents were to leave. Mom came to my room before leaving and said 'U better finish shopping today itself'. I didnt understand what she meant. But then I had little control left.. she was the one who had control. They left for work. I came out and started cleaning the house and utensils. Put the clothes for washing. I didn't feel like crossdressing today. By 1030 I finished it all. I got into jeans and a long shirt..i didnt want anybody to see the pink panties I was wearing. I checked in the mirrror by bending if they were visible. They weren't. I left for college. I sat alone on the last bench to avoid any incident. Shrutika was no where to be seen. She came in after 1st lecture and sat beside me. Everyone in the class was shocked. They were probably wondering how was the girl who abused me was sitting next to me. Even i was confused. She just whispered in my ear 'hi girl..we have to do shopping today'. Damn what was this shopping.. i just asked her what shopping..to which she replied.. do u want to wear the same panties all your life..we have to get some new ones.. I am sure you are wearing the dirty ones.. and she started pulling my shirt up.. i resisted her..but she just made her eyes big and I stopped. She checked and said 'i guess u love pink'.. i just looked at her blank face.. we finished our college by 2pm and she took me to a mall.. I wanted to just run away.. but i couldnt.. she took me some store.. it was all lingerie.. woaahhh I was excited to see it all.. this was something I had never seen.. Mom was always plain cotton.. but this was heaven..I could feel getting hard.. thats when a sales woman came and asked shrutika how can i help you.. shrutika just said 'not me..we want it for her' i was fucking shocked..even the saleswoman was shocked.. thats when shrutika said just kidding.. we just laughed in embarrassment. Shrutika said I want M size panties..only tangas and bikini.. all in pink and matching bras of 36 B..only demi cups..saleswoman said are you sure ? U dont look like size 36.. 32 will be perfect for you and Small size panties.. shrutika replied 'so you understood i wasnt kidding..now please get them we dont have much time'. The saleswoman just gave a weird look and left. She came back with like 12-13 pairs.. Each one was so good.. i couldnt take my eyes off them.. some were satin..some were lycra.. shrutika selected 3 of them.. it was good she didnt add to my embarrassment by making me select them..that was a relief.. but then she had to say something and just said..this is the last time I am buying them for you.. Now the saleswoman must have been pretty sure who they were for if not before.. i just kept my head down and we went to the bill counter. Shrutika paid the money and we left.. i asked her why r you doing all this and paying for this. She just said 'this is the money your mom gave me yesterday for your shopping..she would have bought them for you.. but she wanted you to be a girl first then a lady'. Such a understanding mom i had !! Damn !! Then she took me to another shop..to which i asked more is left ? She said offcourse.. I hope you dont want to come to college in your moms sarees everyday or do you ? I was like but what ??? I am not going to wear girls clothes outside my house.. she said whatever and pulled me in.. she took me to jeans section and asked my waist size..I replied rudely if u can buy bras and panties without asking the size you can do this too.. she said ''ohh the girl is angry i didnt let her select her panties" and she started laughing.. my face was red with anger but to avoid anything more..i just tould her 32.. she said you better start exercising..32 is way too big anyways go and try these jeans.. I was like noways..this was womans store..I am not going to the changing room..she said 'if it doesnt fit you come to change it' i said ok. And we bought 2 jeans.. then she took me to dresses section.. we just need a lbd from here.. I was like whats a lbd.. she said you better start reading magazines.. a girl has to know everything.. its not only about wearing panties.. i just gave a stern look..thats when I saw what is a lbd ! Damnn.. where does she think I am going to wear that?? I didnt ask.. she asked for a size 10 and said I am sure u dont want to try this too ! Its your call ! I just said I will manage.. then was the time for night suit.. I thought she will look for night suit.. but some very small dresses.. she was checking them in pink too ! They were so small...I was pretty sure ass cheeks would be visible from them.. i asked her what are these called.. she smiled and said now thats a good girl.. these are babydolls.. wear them in bed.. u also get a thong free with them.. but i dont think thongs will contain everything.. i just nodded.. she picked 2 of them.. and something like a vest.. 3 of them.. they were camisoles... I was tired holding so much things.. I actually didnt know there was so much to girls fashion.. you could spend whole day but still you would be wanting more.. we finished with that in the store and left it.. then she took me to a super store..sanitary section.. the first thing she choosed was so shocking.. a freaking family pack of sanitary pad named whisper.. I was like i cant be wearing that.. she just said shut up.. I was going mad now.. she bought some razors.. honey wax.. nail polish (that too in pink).. nail paint remover.. cottons.. I just stopped looking..she was buying so much !!!!gosh !!! I told her i am hungry.. I guess you have brought more than what will be used..she said dont worry you will.. we made payments and left.. i asked her lets have a burger maybe.. she was like are you mad girl ? Ur waist is already 32.. we will have green tea.. ohhh godd... this girl was making me crazy.. while we sat down to have tea mom called and said sweetheart its 5.30.. when will come home and prepare food ? I was like this shrutika is buying so much.. Mom shouted and said thats all required.. now get home fast and ask shrutika to join for dinner.. I said okay.. i told shrutika what mom had said.. she said obviously i will..i shopped so much for you.. you have to cook food for me.. i just wondered why why why does she never say no. I wrapped up got home.. Mom was happy seeing her.. I badly wanted to pee..I went to the washroom.. when I opened the door they both were standing outside.. girl u still need to learn manners ! I didnt understand what they meant.. but mom said that is laters.. go and cook food fast.. I was still cooking food when dad came at around 7..he was early.. mom just asked me to go to the bedroom while she will manage rest.. shrutika opened the door.. he was happy to see her but he wanted to see me..i called me out.. he seemed happy.. he said ' I have got a promotion'.. mom hugged him.. we were happy.. but then he gave a shock.. with promotion he also been transferred from mumbai to Gujarat.. woaah I was like this is the best chance to run away from this shrutika.. nothing of this fuck anymore.. thats when dad said but he will live there alone.. as my college too had started and mom still has a job..anyways he would come home once in a month.. shrutika and mom seemed way too happy.. i couldn't even fake a smile.. i just sat blank on dining table..i asked dad when is he shifting.. he said 2moow morning itself.. I was screaming on the inside pls dont go.. but he has his career.. I kept quiet.. i ate food and left to my bedroom..I slept.. i didnt even bother to talk.. I was doomed.. next morning i was woken by dad at 8.. he was leaving.  I wished him luck.. while his cab left.. another came in.. it was shrutika.. i saw her from upstairs and left to my room.. Mom opened the door for her..they directly came into my room and woke me up.. before I could say anything mom gave me a tight slap.. I was wide awake now.. she asked what time you have been ordered to get up? I said i was tired yday thats why.. Mom said dont give excuses..tired not tired ..happy sad.. you will wake up at 5 understood ? I said yes.. now go get bathed..and try on the clothes..shrutika told me you didnt try them on store.. I said yes.. I went to the bathroo.. thats when mom knocked the door..and asked how do you pee? I was like what the fuck? How does a guy pee i asked ? Shrutika replied from behind.. u r a girl sweetheart..it down and pee.. Mom asked me to do it in front of her... I said no.. but she was adamant.. I sat down.. pulled my panties down and pissed.. i was about to get up when she stopped me and asked me to wipe it up with tissue first.. i did so and asked anything more ? She just said a girl should be clean and never should she make noise while doing it.. now bathe we have so much work.. i took bath and came out to which they objected.. the next time you go for bath.. take your bra and panties with you and wear the towel from the breast and not from the waist. I nodded yes.. they asked me to wear shorts and sleep on the floor.. They had put a newspaper..they wanted me to lie on it.. i did so.. shrutika applied some lotion on my hand and mom applied it on my legs.. i asked what was it.. shrutika said girls dont have unnecessary hair on their body.. they shaved every bit of hair from my body.. and then applied wax to it.. it was warm.. They left it like that for some 20mins and started peeling it off.. ohh that what freaking pain.. Mom said u should always wax when you have small hair.. not when they are big..thats why we shaved you first.. this was the 1st and last time.. next time onwards you have to do it yourself.. i haf tears rolling down my cheeks.. it was do damn paniful.. Mom asked me to take a shower again in hot water and remove the wax if it is left anywhere.. i took hot shower.. as I was moving hands over my skin..it felt so smooth.. i just kept moving my hands over my stomach and legs they were so freaking smooth..I loved the feeling.. I finished my shower put on my new bra and panty and checked myself on mirror.. Ohhh my freaking God.. i couldnt believe..it was so beautiful.. only one thing was missing.. i had no boobs ! I came out and they had the boobs ready..it was some rubber silicone material.. they put in..they had applied some paste to it...woahhh it looked as if I had real boobs !!! I put my bra back on..I kept looking in mirror..i couldnt believe..I was hot as fuck.. mom asked me to get dressed completely.. i just ran in her bedroom...grabbed her favorite saree of mine.. baby pink in color.. and started dressing up.. Girly life had just begin.. I was just so much excited..

New duties of Sissy Life

I reached home. It was almost evening. I hurriedly got out of the panties and got into my male underwear. Panties were wet in the crotch area. I thought of throwing them but then i dont get to wear Moms clothes now, so i thought of hiding it. Dad came home but Mom wasnt still home. I was getting scared more and more. What has the doctor told mom.. has mom left us.. what will she tell dad. It was late 11 when mom came mom.. she had brought food for us from restaurant.. when dad asked why she was so late.. mom replied she was catching up with an old friend. I knew it was the doctor. Mom seemed drunk.. but i was scared so i just ate and went to the bed as quickly as possible. Mom didnt come to check in on me. I dozed off. Next morning Mom came to wake me up.. I was thinking she was going to talk about yesterday but instead she said the maid is on leave for couple of weeks.. and I am busy with work load..so I have just prepared dads n my pwn food. You prepare your own food.. and get the clothes washed..and also clean the house and utensils.. I had never been asked to do all this ever before.. but i said yes. And mom left. I got up had a wash and went to put my clothes in washing machine..and woaaahhh.. Moms clothes were there.. I was wondering my luck ! Thank God the Maid went on holiday. I rushed to see her bedroom and damn..it was open too.. even the wardrobe.. i couldnt contain my excitement !!! I grabbed her bra.. opened my locker and took out the panties doctor had forced me into and started dressing up completely. I specially chose a pink saree and blouse !! I even put on make up ! I was so excited to see myself in the mirror.. I was just roaming around the house.. thats when my phone rang.. it was mom.. I received the call to which she asked me whether i was doing what all was asked.. I had completely forgotten about it. But I said yes and disconnected the call. Thats when even shrutika messaged me after so long.. 'hey girl where the hell are you..hope u didnt run away...i want to see you bitch..can i come over to your house today?' I was like wtf.. if she comes she spoils everything..already she has put me into so much trouble.. so i thought its better to ignore her..i didnt reply. I just thought of getting the work done first and later prancing around. I started the machine.. went into kitchen and started cleaning the utensils.. I was loving its feel.. the sound of bangles.. it felt like housewife doing her chores.. it was so much fun to do all of it.. i did the utensils quickly and put some rice and vegetables for cooking. Then I started cleaning the house.. damn it was so tiring.. it took me more than 4 hours to get everything done..i was damn hungry by then.. i just ate the food which I made like a true housewife and sat seeing the tv.. I was so tired that I fell asleep on the couch.. it must have been around 3pm when I could sleepishly hear some bell.. i ignored it once and went back to sleep..but then the noise started increasing more.. thats when I realised there was somebody at the door.. I checked through the eye hole.. it was shrutika.. she was alone.. i thought she must have known now that i was home since she could have heard the tvs noice.. It was no use switching it off now.. I kept looking through the eye hole wishing she left.. she took out her mobile and started calling.. I knew she must be trying my no. I just rushed into my bedroom to put it on silent mode. I managed to do it. Just when the phone stopped ringing..she messaged me.. thats too much of jewellery u r wearing sweetheart.. I could hear your payals and bangles when u started running from the door..i was fucking pissed at this girl.. I hated her.. I was confused about what to do now.. she wasnt ready to go away.. i just thought i better remove everything and attend to her. I quickly went to moms bedroom and started removing the jewellery and clothes.. i neatly folded the saree, blouse, petticoat and put them into there place and then i remembered i still have make up on me..I went into the washroom which was attached to moms bedroom and started cleaning my face. I was almost done thats when I heard the door being unlocked..I was scared how was she managing it. Thats when I looked at the clock..it was 5pm..damn mom was home on perfect time today and shrutika must have told her no one is opening the door. Thats why mom must have used ger keys.. i still had bra amd panty on me.. I started running from the wash room thinking of making it just to my bedroom but they opened the door while i was still in moms bedroom. I hurriedly close the door and locked it. They had seen be do that.. but I wasn't sure whether they saw me in bra and panty. I was scared as fuck. Mom started yelling at me.. she asked me to come out of the room fast.. i just couldn't understand anything. I quickly unhooked the bra and put it on the bathroom hooks.. I thought if she asks i will say maybe u didnt put it in the machine after taking bath.. but what about the panty.. it wasnt moms.. i cant hide it in her room.. more over if maid starts coming again by 2morow itself.. mom will lock the doors and some or the other day she will find it out.. Mom was continuously yelling for me to come out of the bedroom. I thought there was no way I was getting out of this.. i just keep the panties on.. put moms towel around the waist and say i used your bathroom coz my geyser wasnt working properly. It seemed perfect idea.. i did so and came out.. I replied as I had planned.. Mom asked me to wear something up as shrutika was there.. and give her water and all by the time she changes and comes out. She asked shrutika not to go before she came
 Shrutika said she had all the time in the world.. mom went to her bedroom and locked it.. i didnt even look at shrutika and started going into my bedroom..I was about to close the door thats when shrutika forcibly came in.. I tried going away from her.. she just pulled my towel and started smiling.. u dumb sissy ur moms pink panties were peeking out all the time. I tried to hide them and said they are not moms.. to which she made big eyes and said ohhh so the sissy even has her own panties.. even if ur mom might have not noticed these.. girl just see in the mirror.. I checked..damn.. the bra strap marks.. shrutika came close to me and said girls should always have thr bra on otherwise see what happens ! She said now your mom knows u r a girly fag.. I am not letting you remove these hot panties that you have on.. I started begging her to go..mom will come out of bedroom anytime.. she said do as I say or I will tell her everything.. u can wear your clothes but keep these panties on. I agreed. I wore a tshirt and jeans over it and came out. She just kept teasing me about what I should be wearing, how awesome my figure is and on on.. i just kept quiet. Mom came out of bedroom and asked shrutika what will she like to have..to which shrutika replied no aunty its fine..u must be tired..u dont have to do this.. Mom laughed and came at sat besides her..and said i wont be making it she will make it..ohh sorry..he will make.. I was shocked to hear this cheap joke from mom.. shrutika knew my mom did this purposefully.. she played along and said if she is making i will have a coffee..ohh sorry he.. I was so embarrassed and excited at being called as she. Thats when mom shouted go and make coffee for both of us. I just put my head down and started walking towards kitchen.. thats when mom called me said.. u have left something u had worn in my bathroom.. pls take it in your room and put it for washing.. and now on it is urs.. I started crying.. i didnt want to show them I was crying.. i was just heading towards kitchen.. mom yelled and said do what is told to be done first.. now i couldnt control and bursted big time crying. Mom shouted even more and said stop crying like a girl and do your work.. Thats when shrutika aunty what us like a girl.. she is a girl only thats why she is crying so much.. i just couldny control anymore..I ran to moms bathroom grabbed the bra and started walking back.. shrutika noticed it.. I was sure she will comment something and she did..thats not matching your pink panties girl'.. Mom was like is she wearing panties ? Shrutika replied yeah they were peeking out of the towel..maybe she has them on now too.. i didnt want mom asking me to undress there now.. i just ran into my bedroom and locked the door and kept crying with my head tucked into the pillow. I cried and cried. Nobody came to console me. I wanted atleast my mom to come and say I love you the way are..but she didnt. I finally stopped crying after 15mins.. I could hear them talk.. I wanted to drink water..my throat had dried up.. but i didnt want to come out. I waited and waited.. it was almost 7 and shrutika and mom were still talking. Dont know about what.. i couldnt hear it properly. I just didnt want my dad coming and seeing me in this condition. I badly needed water. I thought to myself id they dont care about me so shouldnt i care. I opened the door and straight away walked to the kitchen. They stopped talking and kept looking at me. I drank water.. thats when mom said wash those cups and prepare dinner before dad comes home, shrutika will have dinner with us. I again wanted to go back into my bedroom but i thought it wont be of any use. I started cooking food while they kept chit chatting. I managed to have rice and curry ready by 8. Mom asked me to come and sit on the sofa. I was just wondering what next. She told me that she had a talk with the doctor yesterday.. doctor had advised her to give maid an off and keep all lockers open to see what i do. And well ! I can see what you really are. I cant believe you used to wear my dirty panties all day long ! U r disgusting. I just kept my head down. Mom continued I have fired the maid..we dont need her services anymore. You will be doing it all. Even the morning breakfast and lunch will be prepared by you along with dinner. Dad wakes up by 7. So you better have finished cooking by then. Clothes and utensils you do according to when you get time. And yes you will start going to college too. I just nodded yes. Now go and arrange food before dad comes home. Shrutika all the time just kept smiling. I did as said. Dad came home.. we had dinner.. it was all dad mom and shrutika talking. They didnt even bother to include me in their talks. I just wondered had dad taken efforts to see what was going on.. maybe things would have been lot different. We finished dinner.. Mom and shrutika took the plates while me and dad watched tv for sometime and he left to his room. Shrutika too left and mom asked me to go to bedroom. I had a message on phn shrutika.. ur dad will sleep by 10.30. U go and clean the utensils after 11pm. Damn i cant sleep till 12 and i have to get up by 5 next morning to prepare food. At 1030 Mom came in my room with an empty bag and asked me why hadnt I replied to shrutika. I said I had read the message thr was nothing to reply in it..Mom said you better reply from next time atleast with a yes and now go and clean the utensils..I was damn sleepy but i didnt say anything and left. Mom came in the kitchen after 5mins and said finish it up and better have everything prepared by 7 in the morning or I am telling your dad what you are upto. I nodded yes and resumed cleaning. I finished by 1130 and went to bed. I put an alarm on phone and dozed off. I woke up at 5 and thought of taking bath and then starting with making food. As i was about to pee it struck me I am wearing panties.. damn it was whole day I was in panties and i didnt even know.. i put them in the washing machine and went to bath. I finished bath and came out.. I opened my wardrobe but i couldn't find any of my male undies.. I even searched the whole room but no where thats when I heard sound of moms bathroom..she was up..it was almost 5.30.. she would scold me for being late.. but then whr were my undies.. thats when mom came in my room and said I knew you would be wasting time.. you dont need what you are searching for.. get back into what u were wearing till you buy new ones today afternoon after college..and now go and do your work.. I was spechless.. did that mean I had wear panties to college...damnn.. I was stuck..but i just took the panties back from machine and started preparing food. It was just the beginning of my sissy life but all I wanted was having fun crossdressing in the afternoon and here I was.. 

Horrible experience with Psychiatrist

I laid down in the bed thinking about today. What had happened wasnt even in my wildest dreams. Thinking about the future i didnt knew when I had fallen asleep. The next morning I woke there wasnt anyone in the house. My parents had left for work. I was damn hungry.. i hadnt eaten the whole day. I went to the kitchen and found some food prepared by mom. I was happy..or to say maybe food made me happy. I checked my phone..there wasnt anything from shrutika. I was scared as well as relieved. I took a quick shower and thought of going to college. After shower as I was going to put my clothes for washing I found nothing in the machine. My mom hadnt put her clothes for washing. This was quite a shocker. It made me curious. I thought of checking her bathroom..maybe she had forgot them there. Much too my shock her room was locked. I guess she had taken preventive measures. I was little sad..after seeing and wearing her clothes almost everyday..today was different. I thought to myself maybe its for my own good.. I was born as a man and so should i live like one. I started getting ready to go college..thats when i had a message on my phone. It was from mom. She asked me to come to some doctor in half an hour and not go to the college. Now i was scared to death. Will dad be there ? What doctor is this ? Will they put me into mental asylum thinking I was mad? I had thousands of questions in my mind. I had no option but to go to the doctor. I reached there on time. Mom was sitting there in the waiting room. I went and sat next to her. We didnt make any eye contact. I wanted to talk but mom didnt seem intrested. We sat for some 30mins silently till it was our turn. I started shivering..to hide my fear I had clinched my fist. As we entered the cabin I checked the doctors name and specialization. She was a psychiatrist. Damn ! We entered. Mom and the doctor hugged each other and asked about what is happening in life. They were friends. Then to my shock the doctor asked my mom to leave. Mom left. The fear gripped me even more. She had sensed my nervousness. I was sweating. She gave me water and asked to relax. I did so. But my fear hadnt reduced. Now she started asking questions. She was to the point. So is it true you like wearing make up ? I replied negatively. What about what you said to mom that you used her make up and maybe you even use her clothes. I stammered and said i did put on make up but not the clothes. She had me. She then turned her laptop towards me and asked me to give answers to the list of questions she had made for me while she will go and have her lunch. I said okay. She left and I started the test. It was see the image and answer kinda test. I started with the test. The question seemed easy..
1) who do you idolize ? Mom or dad -  I clicked mom
2) your favorite color ? White, black, pink, colorful - colorful though I had pink in my mind.
I thought to myself i can fake some answers by which she might guess I am a sissy.
3) do you have a girlfriend - no
4) did you ever have a girlfriend - no
5) do u like/love some girl - if yes then who is she - i said yes and I was to write shrutika..  when i changed it to no.
6) what about boyfriend ? Do u like boys - I could sense where this was going.. so i said no. It was true i never liked boys.yuck
7) who is hotter - there were 2 images - a woman in saree and a girl un western clothes.. I clicked on the woman in saree
8) how often do you masturbate ? Damn there was no option for never. I hadnt masturbated ever. But now I had to answer something. I clicked on twice a week.
9) which one is better ? There were two images of panties. A red thong and a pink laced satin full cover panty. Damn I had to select one. What the fuck was this. Anything i select will show I am a sissy..wtf should I do know.. I had my mind racing but my eyes were stuck to the pink lace panty.. I could feel a small erection. They were so cute. I clicked on them.
10) whom do u want to go in bed with - there was an image of naked woman and a woman in pink bra and panty. The bra and panty had little flowers on them. My erection grew looking at it. I clicked for woman in bra and panties.
The test was over.
I waited dor something around 5 mins when both my mom and doctor returned. She took the laptop and closed. I was thinking what about the result.. thats when she said.. we were observing your answers on other pc which is lan connected to this laptop. We already have the results. Then she said they knew what my answers to the first 5 questions would be.. all she wanted to see how much time i take to answer the last 5. The results are based on time too. How long you took to answer also means alot. Then she turned her screen to me and showed me an image and asked me are you sure u want to go in bed with this lady. It was the last question woman whom I had selected. I said yes. To which she again asked are you sure.. look carefully.. i saw again..dammmmit...it was a man who had crossdressed. WTF ! I had nothing to say.. shit.. she just took the laptop back and asked me to wait outside. All the time i was thinking what now ! Till last night 2 women knew and now a 3rd one. Mom came out after 10mins or so and we both left for home. On our way back Mom said i have to visit the doctor every week amd she wont accompany me from now on. I wont be going to the college for atleast a month till the treatments are on. I asked mom of any medicines have to be taken to which she said no. Mom dropped me home and left for office. I checked my phone there was a message from shrutika which said 'hey girl, why didnt you come to college doll' it turned me on badly.. instead of replying I wanted to crossdress.. i again checked if keys to my moms room are there. But i couldnt find any. It was so annoying. I had lost the excitement then i again checked my phone.. that sentence resonated through my mind. I thought to myself of being a man and not replying to this crap. I deleted the message and started studying. Which i couldn't..again n again the man in those bra and panties came in front of my eyes. This way the whole day passed away. Parents were home in the evening. I was called out for dinner. Mom wasnt wearing her night gown which she normally did..instead she was wearing a saree. Something was different. We finished dinner and went to our rooms. I slept thinking was i getting back to being a man. Next morning I woke up..again parents had left without waking me up.. the first thing I checked was the washing machine.. no inners..no clothes of mom. I checked her room..it was locked too. I was irritated. The same happened the third day and so on ! I was damn pissed off ! Every night I had started dreaming about being in womans clothes but to my luck nothing was in my hands. Shrutika didnt message me since that day i hadnt replied to her. All this together was frustrating me to the core. The whole week ever since i was caught I was home except that one visit to the doctor. No dressing up. Nothing. The day came when i had to visit the doctor again. Mom had left some money for the visit and left for work. It was a good thing she hadnt told anything to dad. He would have killed me. I got ready and left for the doctor. The clinic was very much empty that day. I went in and she recognized me. She asked about how i was doing and stuff. I replied positively even though i wasnt. She asked me to lock the door, while she closed all the curtains. I was wondering where will this lead to. Then she asked me to undress. I was like WHAT ??? She said u heard it right.. remove your clothes fast i dont have all day for this..if you dont want to do the treatment.. I am calling your mom you tell her what is wrong. I was red. But i obliged to what she said. She then asked me to remove my undies. I wasnt ready for that atleast. She then just got irritated and removed it. I couldnt resist her force. She stood there and noted some points on her paper while I tried to hide my embarrassment. She then asked me whether i had waxed or shaced my hair anytime. U said never..i never had much hair ever. She then caressed my hair and kept looking at my penis. I think she didn't get the wanted response. Out of nowhere she touched my penis..I tried to remove her hand but she tried holding it. After like 10 seconds she took it off and wrote something. Then she went to her chair opened up drawer and threw something at me. I caught it and damn..they were pink satin panties. My heart started racing. I had never felt such an immense pleasure..my moms were always cotton and plain panties but this was heaven.. i broke out of the trance and looked at her.. She was smiling.. she pointed to me downwards. I had a hard on ! I tried to cover it up with those panties..but as the sheer satin touched my penis..it grew even harder. She asked me thats the max hard on you get ? I blushed.. She asked me can you make out the difference ? I was like what difference ? She explained to me that touch of woman has no effect on you but look what panties in hand did to you..had you worn them you would have surely wetted them. I blushed even more. I didnt understand why this was happening. She said I am done with you..there is no use wasting time behind trying to get the man in you back. You weren't born as a man..you are a sissy and you better live like one..go get yourself a boyfriend. I was shocked at what she was saying.. but I had panties covering up my penis and I felt greatttt ! She then took my male undies and threw it into dustbin and asked me to get rid of the ones I had at home and get some panties and be the girl you are. I was on verge of crying. She said she will call mom and explain it to her..it will be hard for her to accept..I am sure you will convince.. and by the way ur mom is a strong woman and not a sissy like you. She will handle the situation perfectly. Now you can go.. you need not come next week. You come to tell me your progress a week after that. Now leave. I was crying..to which she ordered me stop it sissy...put on ur panties..cover up ur little hard on..and for your information nobody considers it as a hardon.. you better call it clit. Now leave.. I was still crying.. to which she said do you want me to call guards so that they too know the new sissy in town ? To which I nodded no..put on those panties..my clothes back on. Gave her the fees and left..while leaving she said bye girl.. i didnt respond to her. I was angry but i was turned on. I could feel the satin brushing against my jeans. The panties were tight..I could feel every inch of them.. journey from the. Doctor to my home was horrible as well as sensual.. a perfect hard on with consistent fear of being caught. I just sat in the cab and wondered what was she going to tell my Mom and how was she going to react. 

Male ego crushed

She had me ! My silence was killing me. I wanted to talk, I wanted to scream. But something made me stop. I just couldnt talk. All I could hear was sissy fag coward loser. After sometime she calmed down and asked me never to call again or else she would hand me over to cops and disconnected the call. I couldnt sleep that night. I regretted my every move. Next morning i lied about not being well and didnt go to college. I kept doing this for couple of days. I just didnt want to face her. Out of nowhere unexpectedly i recieved her call on 3rd day of that horrible phone conversation. She asked me to come to college 2morow and disconnected the call. I mercilessly ended up in college next day. She was nowhere to be seen. She had bunked the lectures and was chilling around in a near by cafe. She caught me after the college was over and handed over her books to me and asked me complete her notes by 2morow. I was desperate to talk. It was like a dream that my dream girl was talking to me but i never wanted it to happen this way. That night I kept completing her notes. I hadnt finished my mine but I made sure I did hers. I handed over them to her next morning. She asked me whr I lived n how did i come to college. College was 5mins walking distance from my house. But she used to come by trains. She asked me about who all stayed at my house. When i told her that 9 to 5 its all by me. I could see a twinkle in her eye. She asked me to text her that night. I said yes and was about to walk away when she ordered me to buy a cigarette packet for her. I did that, handed over the packet to her and left for home. I kept wondering whether she had a soft spot for me and maybe she too tries 2 be stubborn on the outside but was soft on the inside. At around 11pm i messaged her. She was instant to reply. She asked me whether I am sure nobody would be home 2morow. I answered positively. She replied that 3 of her friends and herself wanted a place 2 drink and they would be coming over. I said no issues. But that was not it. She got angry n said dont you even dare talk like I am ur friend. I just replied with a ok. She then gave me a list to buy - a bottle of scotch, 2 packets of cigarettes, soda, food from hotel. I said i didnt have that much money. She got angry and said do whatever it takes..beg, borrow, steal ! I had no option but to lie to my parents for extra money being required for college project. I messaged her in the night I had managed the money to which she replied "good". O kept thinking lying on bed why was i doing this but the thought of having four girls at my place drinking excited me. I slept off thinking about how the party will go. The next morning shrutika messaged me asking for my address. I replied with the address and left home for buying alcohol and other. Stuff. They reached my home around 10.30am. I was expecting hugs or maybe atleast a hello while entering but nothing of that sort happened. They straight away barged into my house and went around checking the rooms. I closed the door and stood there wondering what next. Shrutika asked me to get the glasses ready and everything laid on the table while they changed into something comfortable. I said okay and started getting table ready. I had made 5 small pegs, 4 for them and one for me. Got the ice and soda ready when they walked in. I was awestruck seeing them. They had changed into mini shorts and camisoles. I was in seventh heaven just looking at them. They reached the table and shrutika asked me about the 5th peg to which I said I will be having it. They started laughing.. one of the girls pulled my cheek and said u will remain in ur room whole day completing our assignments while we drink here. I was confused but suddenly shrutika screamed and ordered me to get into my room and start the work. I left. I came into my room and locked it. They had put on some music and started drinking while i was in the room completing their books. They had their tops and jeans kept in one corner of the bed neatly folded. I couldnt control staring at them. I took courage and smelled them and it was pure ecstasy. My mind started racing. I had never cross dressed in western clothes. It was only sarees, blouses, petticoats for me. I wanted to do it badly. I checked the washing machine for my moms yesterday's clothes. I took out the bra and panty she had worn previous day and put it on. I was literally shivering now. I took the pink top which shrutika was wearing and hastily tried to put it on. It got torn at the left underarm and all my excitement fizzled out. I immediately lost the small erection which I had got. I removed the top and checked how much big was hole.. It was a little one..thank god ! I didnt think about the size..these girls whr all slim and petite whereas my mom was voluptuous which never caused any problem wearing her clothes. But the top I tried on was just 'S' size. I was scared to death. I removed my moms inners put them back into the machine and folded shrutika's top and kept it back in its place. I got to completing their assignments. At around 2pm I finished writing and was damn hungry by then. I opened the door and saw them dancing..They had finished the alcohol. Shrutika asked me why was i out of the room.. i told her i was hungry and wanted to have my lunch to which they laughed and said they had eaten it up and asked me to get back into the room and not come out till the time I am ordered. I was damn hungry but had no option and I went to my room. I tried sleeping but i couldnt. Slowly as time was passing I was getting scared. I had expected them to leave by 4 so that I could get everything like it was before.. but it was 4.30 and no sign of them moving out. Mom was expected to be home by 5pm n they were still smoking in the living room. At around 4.50 they came to the room and asked me to go out as they wanted to change and leave. I hurriedly started cleaning everything. Started the fans on full speed..opened the windows to get the smoke out. They changed and came out and asked for money to go home. I was shocked. Whr the fuck would I get money from was in my mind but not on my tongue..i just went to my bedroom and got some money. When i was handing over the money to shrutika..she looked at me and said 'for the top?' Other girls didnt seem to have a clue but I knew she knows it that i did something to her top. But as it was 5..she didnt say anything more and they left.. i got back to cleaning.. I had managed to get everything cleared up ! As much as what i thought was clean ! Mom was home by 5.15. As soon as she entered she smelled the smoke and asked me about it to which I said i dont smell anything. Nothing happened. I went to my room and mom to hers. Then it struck me whr are the cigarette butts ! Holy shit ! They are still in the house.. before i was about to open the door..mom barged in just her bra and petticoat(worn under saree) with a box in her hand and gave me a tight slap. She started screaming at top of her voice asking about so many cigarette butts in her room.. the girls had left it on make up table. I started crying i didnt know what to say.. Mom said how dare you smoke..u wont be given any food tonight and no coming out of ur room till 2morow morning. This is ur punishment. I kept crying while she closed the door on me. I stopped after few mins but I had seen my moms boobs for 1st rime though they wr in her bra. But that was the closest I had ever seen anything. I just said laid on the bed thinking about two things now whether mom will tell dad and what is shrutika thinking about her top now. Dad was home by 8..one good thing she didnt tell him. They had their dinner by 9..she had told dad that i wasnt feeling well and wont be having dinner. At around 9.30 mom came into my room. I acted as if I was asleep. She woke me up and started asking me questions. Her 1st question was a shocker for me..was thr any girl home today ? I stammered and said no. I kept saying I was all alone. She asked then did u smoke all the cigarettes on ur own? I said yes.. She was like are you sure ? Then I said yes. She then showed me the butts and asked me.. I said yes and then while looking i saw lipstick marks on it. Fuck ! Mom asked since when I am doing this? I said we started smoking when the college started..to which she cut me and said not smoking..when did u start putting on make up. I had no answer..Mom said i saw there was some fiddling around with the make up box too.. when did u start putting on make up..do u like to be a girl ? I started crying..I guess she knew by now what I really was... mom threw the butts in the dustbin and walked away without consoling me. I started crying even more harder. She came back..i thought maybe to console me.. But she just went to the washing machine and removed her clothes from it..and said i always felt there was something wrong in  the way I kept my clothes in the morning and the way they would be in the evening. Cant believe i gave birth to a sissy. I couldnt believe the words from her mouth. I just kept abusing shrutika in my mind for what has happened. Mom left without saying anything more. I kept crying for another 20mins. I just wanted to run away. Thats when my phone rang and it was shrutika. I hated now her name on the screen..I wanted to abuse her.. as soon as I received the call..She asked me about the top..I had no reply..she just asked did u wear it ? I didnt know what to say..I kept saying what are you saying..she remained silent for a bit and then asked why did u wear it..do u like being a girl ? I started crying.. She knew now.. I was a real sissy.. that was the 1st time she talked lovingly with me when she said dont cry baby..u r a strong girl.. I felt good and the same time humiliated.. She said good night and cut the call.. in one day within few hours two women know my reality now.. I am a sissy.. not a real man.. my male ego was crushed..the man in me had left my soul...or maybe he was never there..

1st Day in Senior College

The vacations were over. College admissions had been done. Everything was all set for the new college life in town(mumbai). I was very much excited for it. Though I had studied in co-ed it was always a problem to have female friends. It was mostly because of my introvert nature. I am the only child of my parents. Both of them have 9 to 5 jobs. I used to spend my whole time studying in school or tuitions till the time hormones kicked in. I wanted to have girlfriends like other guys but i couldnt. I couldnt even talk to them which made me even more curious about them. I badly wanted someone in my life. While others were losing virginity I was just wondering how to get a gf. I started making my knowledge about girls more deeper.i would read magazines n books. This didnt help me getting a gf but I ended up trying my moms innerwears. No sexual urges but it made me feel good as if I had someone. It progressed onto trying more and more stuff. I could wear a saree n little bit of make up in no time. Gradually i didnt want to hang out with friends, all I wanted to do was come home and crossdresser as long as i could. I wanted to sleep in panties but never dared to it. This continued for very long and while other guys were masturbating and fucking all i was happy in was in feminizing myself. But I had developed a fake macho persona which showed me as arrogant and aggressive just so that no one knew what I really am. Cut long story short.. 1st day of college.. i had few friends from school n junior college who also had taken admission in same college n some even in my stream(bms). I had missed the freshers party btw so for me everyone was mostly new. All were sitting in the class when a hot chick walked in with couple of friends.. Even her friends were hot but I had a liking towards her(shrutika). All day long I stared at her. I checked out were she lived n whr she is from other guys who were talking with her. Seeing her smoke turned me on even more. My mind had just one thought if u have to get a gf she is the one. I stole her no from a common friends no and bought a fake sim to get in touch to even know her much better. In reality i didnt even lock eyes with her. I messaged her on WhatsApp from the new no. and ended up getting questioned about how I got her no. She wasnt satisfied with the answers n decided to block me which made me anxious n i told her the reality to which she didn't reply anything though she had read them. Next day when she came into the class, she straightaway approached me and started calling me by names and abusing me. Even i reverted back as the whole class watching the scenario. But all of a sudden out of nowhere she called me a sissy n i just couldnt say anything anymore. I started stammering. I did manage to say sorry n asked her to leave. But the word sissy stayed in my mind. I couldnt think anymore apart from that. I started thinking what if everyone knows I am sissy crossdresser. I was so scared and turned on at the same time. I dressed up after reaching home in my moms clothes n that very day I was getting turned on like never before. I could feel like a girl. Next thing I did was jump onto the bed lifted up the saree and started moving pillow over the panties. It was turning me on even more and more. And I ended up cumming in moms panties. This was the 1st time in my life I had came(orgasmed) ! I had never masturbated in my whole life ! The moment I came I felt very bad about it. I removed the clothes put them back into the place. I dont know were i got courage from, but I ended up calling shrutika from my real no. I wanted to bash her up to prove my point that I am macho and not a sissy. BUT the moment the received the call before i cpuld speak anything she started laughing and said I knew u would call, now m sure u r a sissy. Guys like u dont have the guts to talk face to face. All u can do is try to be a hero, but in reality u r nothing but a sissy. I was just listening to her. My mind had gone blank.